oh. i want to start my post with all my complainSSSS , grumbleSS and lamentSSssss.ArGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH..... i want to scream it all out. okay, hypothesis accepted. Girls tend to be in their weakest stage when exam is just around the corner. well, the stress AGAIN! but this time with heavy running nose.

fine.i have not been behaving well these days.believe it, my mood swings like mad, going towards the extreme side.i dont want to talk.i dont want to please people, i dont want to listen and i dont want to mingle.i just want to be ALONE. by the way, i am way better now of course with adequate sleep and a day-break. its weird, i tend to push away people who care for me when i actually need it the most.so, i guess my friends are suffering with my sudden change of behaviour, i cant help it. everything doesn't seem good to me. anyway, i have made a decision this time, and it changed everything.guess that i can cope with myself now~we are a grown up, and because of being more realistic, sometimes a candy or a chocolate just dont help, because what we want eventually is a solution,to go through the problem in us instead of running away from it or waiting for a hero to save us.no more fairytales.

kay, just to let u catch up with what happens to me currently.i went to a talk by Dr Mahathir.haha.well, its was actually quite interesting for me. i always look upon him, and admire him frankly. u cant imagine how i actually felt when i saw his real person.ohhhh, so touching.anway everyone fell asleep when he talked for such a long time,except me with a few blinks at times. it had been a meaningful one=)

so, i got my labelling done.fine, although some of them did it wrongly for me which made alot more troubles for me. wow, i thought i was the only with soo bad mood when i went into the room for file checking section.and it scared me that everyone actually didnt look that fine though,perhaps there were just a few people there i guess. oh, and u know what,i just felt like passing the responsiblity to ser vio and went back home straight away.but then i stayed if u know me well enough.sometimes i understand that its better do something out of your comfort zone because i was pretty sure that i will definitely make wrong decision due to my insane brain which was malfunctioning.anyway, i was glad i felt normal again when everyone were as moody as me esp choon yee. never see him in such quiet state.haha, i felt like home.same, i always feel good when i see nicholous and bernard doing things in a serious way.i think they were the only normal one there, and it boosted me a lot to be better.feel like getting them to be my personal helpers.haha.

thats all for today.i love you guys.